Is it just me?...

The state of the world has my head spinning... I am in a constant cycle of reassuring myself it will be ok and then total terror. I want to be strong for my family, friends, and coworkers, but then I also want to run away and live on a beach while drinking myself stupid. Is it just me, because I feel like everyone is feeling the exact same way right now.

So.... what am I going to do?

I am going to allow myself to have all of these feeling and emotions, and then I am going to be louder and angrier than ever. I am going to use this platform, no matter how small it may be, and say my, well our, piece!

I want cis mainly white men to be afraid of me, to think I am totally unhinged and to see me as a threat and a target. I want my children to think I am crazy and warn their friends about me but when they grow up they think I was brave and strong and did what I could. I want my friends to think I am possibly always pushing the line and think of me as their watchdog and protector. I want to lay on my death bed knowing I did what was right, maybe not easy but right. I want my family to continue to see me as the liberal, leftist, outspoken, snowflake, trans loving, gay celebrating, wild, over opinionated queer woman I am!!!

Trailer Park has already had its challenges and speed bumps but I will keep working to make it the best feminist brand out there. I want women to stop holding their tongues to make men comfortable. I want men to start thinking before they speak and to feel uncomfortable for once. I know we, as the girls, gays, and theys, say a lot of beautiful fucked up things in private to our friends that we wouldn't normally say in public, and I want to change that. Giving us a place to feel comfortable, to say whatever you are thinking and feeling, while also knowing you are not alone. I want women to own their sexuality and sexual desires and to stop shaming other women for enjoying sex. I am determined to cultivate a community through clothing and want everyone to join my trailer park!